My elder daughter did a theft from my and my wife’s wallet.
The sum is nearly 30k yen, and it’s not a small money.

She did it in Wendnesday and I felt something odd in Friday, and my wife also found strangeness in her purse today.
Then we tried to find the money, and we found it in the desk of my daughter.

It’s quite a sensitive issue.
Any crime is serious and will have a significant impact on the trust and credibility.
I tried to let her understand by explaining it.

I think just shouting and yelling at her is not making sense.
She is 11 years old and she needs to understand deeply from her heart.

I really want to be a kind and supportive father to her.
It will/should be a baseline for her life.

Since I faced the fact that my last day is gradually coming closer, I further consider I shouldn’t practice restraint too much.
Curbing my desire deeply will not make much sense, as I can’t live forever.
And I can’t take my assets/money with me when I die.

I have points given by my company’s thanks system, and it’s equal to about 500k yen.
I decided to use this freely.

But even with that, I didn’t buy anything.
I wanted a MacBook Air, but even with all these conditions, it didn’t make me buy it.

It seems my desire is too weak to live happily.

I took 8 days off as Golden Week, but the private tutoring school only has 3 days off for my older daughter.
This time we went back to my hometown and stayed 2 nights.

I came to know that my maternal grandmother had some sickness on her heart condition in the past.
Her sister was the same as well.

Now it makes more sense why sometimes I feel strong pain in the center of my chest.
It’s a genetic issue.

One assuring fact is that all of those people live until their 90s.
It shouldn’t be the reason for the fatal situation for me at an early stage of my life.

At least, I want to live until I am 60.

Exchanged emails with my past colleagues in the US and Australia.
It was good to say hi to people I’m close to.

The challenge is that it’s an email, and we can’t know the facial expression and exact mood.
It’s hard to be sure how the recipients accepted the email.
This is a common challenge even when communicating in one’s native language, especially between boys and girls.

If I had more time, I could spend more time on those email exchanges.
But even as the initiator, it’s difficult for me to spend more time.

One of my colleagues suggested a book in English.
“I tried reading it, but stumbled at the first hurdle within the first few lines because I didn’t understand the meaning of ‘go the whole hog’.
There are a lot of words and idioms whose meaning I don’t know.

But anyway, if you don’t try it, you will not be able to do it easily in future.

I ordered a new washing machine.
I originally thought to make use of Rakuten points, which reached about 50000 points.

It’s not cheap at all, and the cost is 200k+ yen.
Usable cache is reducing recently due to the Trump shock, but I still believe it’s affordable.

In addition to that, soon 1.2M yen will be withdrawn from my account due to the income tax return.
It should be good, as those taxes will grow based on the amount of income.
But it’s a bit hard to sell the stocks due to the recent economic turmoil.

Anyway, this is the first front-loading washing machine and I hope it will be much convenient for my wife.
It has a dryer incorporated and should expedite the whole process of washing.

Probably the next big purchase is a new refrigerator.
It should also be convenient for my family.

Played a game after some time.
It’s The Last of Us Part 2.

Playing a game is time-consuming.
It took 20+ hours to complete, and I can finish reading 5 books with the time.

Still, I think it’s worth playing.
The story is downer and somber, but such deep dark can clearly highlight some good stuff.
The darker the night, the brighter the stars.

It was not a happy ending, but it surely brought me some hope.

I’m not perfect, and I’m just the same human being as others on the globe.
I realize that I wouldn’t be happy when I’m recognized, honored, and praised.
It’s more like feeling relief instantly and it will not last long.

On the other hand, when I see someone being recognized, honored, and praised, I usually don’t feel like celebrating
It will make me feel some sort of small turmoil and anxiety.

If this is the other way around, I will be a more happy person.
But with these traits, I’ll never be happy.

Happiness and life are complicated topics.
I don’t like any experience with fear or pain, so ending my life will not be an option.
But still, I feel like I’ve done more of the things I needed to do in life. Kind of enough.

I plan to buy a new washing machine.
The new model will be released in the Aug-Sep time frame, so the timing right before should be the best to buy last year’s model.
It will help my wife a lot to reduce the burden on chores, as the new models will have the function of a dryer.

I ordered 2 study desks and 2 chairs for my daughters because my younger daughter will start her new school life at elementary school.
The elder daughter has a desk and chair already, but it’s not a good one and getting broken recently.
So we will replace it by buying a new one.

The biggest challenge is the space.
My condo is a bit cramped with small rooms.
So we need to keep rethinking how to put the furniture.
Moving to a rural area can be an option, but my older daughter has her life already, and not willing to do that as she will need to say goodbye to her firends.

I have wanted to buy a Macbook for a couple of years.
It stimulates my desire to possess it, but I haven’t bought it so far.

The problem is I don’t have any specific usage with the Macbook.
I have my Windows desktop PC, and laptop as well.

I have 1 MacBook Pro but that’s for work, and company-owned.
I don’t want to use that laptop on my time off.

I don’t have any specific purpose for which I need to buy the Macbook personally.
But again, I still want it. This is quite strange but possibly related to the mechanism of human beings, especially for possession.

Not sure if things will change later, and I reaches a turning point later.

Pollen season is coming to Japan.

Again, I’m experiencing weird unwellness similar to a cold.
I’m trying medicine for pollen allergies but not working completely.

This time, my younger daughter is having the allergy as well.
The problem is sleeping. With congested nasal, it isn’t easy to have sound sleep.
So we take her to the doctor and the medicine from the doctor looks working well for her.


Recently, a senior colleague in my previous decision is becoming “difficult” with aging.
I just feel it and there’s no concrete evidence.

He divorced in the past and still single, and has no children.
The concept of value is changing with the environment, so there can be a gap between people who have different backgrounds.

I don’t think he is going in the right direction at least for the career.
But career is just a small part of the life.
And everyone is right at their choice for their life.