I’m not perfect, and I’m just the same human being as others on the globe.
I realize that I wouldn’t be happy when I’m recognized, honored, and praised.
It’s more like feeling relief instantly and it will not last long.

On the other hand, when I see someone being recognized, honored, and praised, I usually don’t feel like celebrating
It will make me feel some sort of small turmoil and anxiety.

If this is the other way around, I will be a more happy person.
But with these traits, I’ll never be happy.

Happiness and life are complicated topics.
I don’t like any experience with fear or pain, so ending my life will not be an option.
But still, I feel like I’ve done more of the things I needed to do in life. Kind of enough.

I plan to buy a new washing machine.
The new model will be released in the Aug-Sep time frame, so the timing right before should be the best to buy last year’s model.
It will help my wife a lot to reduce the burden on chores, as the new models will have the function of a dryer.

I ordered 2 study desks and 2 chairs for my daughters because my younger daughter will start her new school life at elementary school.
The elder daughter has a desk and chair already, but it’s not a good one and getting broken recently.
So we will replace it by buying a new one.

The biggest challenge is the space.
My condo is a bit cramped with small rooms.
So we need to keep rethinking how to put the furniture.
Moving to a rural area can be an option, but my older daughter has her life already, and not willing to do that as she will need to say goodbye to her firends.

I have wanted to buy a Macbook for a couple of years.
It stimulates my desire to possess it, but I haven’t bought it so far.

The problem is I don’t have any specific usage with the Macbook.
I have my Windows desktop PC, and laptop as well.

I have 1 MacBook Pro but that’s for work, and company-owned.
I don’t want to use that laptop on my time off.

I don’t have any specific purpose for which I need to buy the Macbook personally.
But again, I still want it. This is quite strange but possibly related to the mechanism of human beings, especially for possession.

Not sure if things will change later, and I reaches a turning point later.

Pollen season is coming to Japan.

Again, I’m experiencing weird unwellness similar to a cold.
I’m trying medicine for pollen allergies but not working completely.

This time, my younger daughter is having the allergy as well.
The problem is sleeping. With congested nasal, it isn’t easy to have sound sleep.
So we take her to the doctor and the medicine from the doctor looks working well for her.


Recently, a senior colleague in my previous decision is becoming “difficult” with aging.
I just feel it and there’s no concrete evidence.

He divorced in the past and still single, and has no children.
The concept of value is changing with the environment, so there can be a gap between people who have different backgrounds.

I don’t think he is going in the right direction at least for the career.
But career is just a small part of the life.
And everyone is right at their choice for their life.