I’ll turn 42 this year.
The feeling that there must be something more wonderful somewhere else other than here is being faded and lost.

I didn’t expect what would be my 40s when I was young, but I’m living my 40s now.
I need to keep my eyes open and keep thinking about myself.
At least, I can try to remember my 40s by doing that.

A couple of days ago, I tried to imagine my moment of dying as specifically as I could.
Then I felt a quite strong fear for my life’s end.

This is important for me, but nothing for most of the other existence in the world.
This fact will remain the same for sure even if I try to do whatever I can.
I’ll die and it’s just the death of one person.

The human is powerful enough to ignore and forget this fact.

Have completed 22 books this year.
This pace is the top record for these 10 years.

Reading the book is easy and the tip to continue reading is to stop reading the boring books.
More difficult is finding and meeting with a good book.
I’m relying on some awards to evaluate the books since I’m not a billionaire.

For me, the book, especially hardcover is expensive.
I can’t spend so much money on the book.

Anyway, currently reading books is a top hobby for me to “consume” my time.
We all need to consume time and survive.
There is not much difference in how to consume time.
In the end, time will be just consumed.

Even at my age, still I can learn.
I would say,  still I can notice basic stuff.

Someone’s common practice, way of thinking, attitude, and habit can be uncommon for others.

Putting the garbage into the trash can is very common for me.
Hence I force family members to do so based on my common sense.
However, the older daughter is not able to follow the guidance and suggestions.

This is a gap in the norm for each.
No one is guaranteed as correct in the subjective world.
Everyone is correct in their world with their standard.

If other world’s standard is pushed forcefully, it can be a reason for depression.

This is what I could learn from my elder daughter.

The older daughter is now 11 and will enter the 6th grade of elementary school.

She is also going to a private tutor(cram school).
The objective is to try to go to a private junior high school.

But she doesn’t do self-study proactively.
Even with our suggestion, she is not willing to study.

Going to a private junior high school is not mandatory.
It’s her choice and if we force her to study hard, it will spoil her life.

Even with that consideration, she has some problems due to her sensitive age.
If I suggest she quit private tutoring school, she refuses.
But she doesn’t spend enough time for study.

Our ultimate objective is to let her live happily.
That’s for sure.