I check the “#買ってよかったもの” tag on note.com every day, searching for anything attractive or justifiable purchases. Still, I haven’t found anything yet. Because of that, I can’t figure out a way to use my 53 million yen points, which I’ve accumulated from various colleagues over the past four years or so.

Tools are just tools, and stuff is just stuff. They can be helpful for our purposes or for the things we want to do. But the important point here is what we’ve done and what we want to do, because our behaviors and actions shape our lives.

I’m currently just spending my life working, looking after my family, reading books, and playing games. However, I think the way I feel about it can change. It’s about whether I’m just spending my life, or truly enjoying it by doing those things.

The weekdays were a bit hectic with multiple events and escalations.

I’m delighted with the compensation and work environment.
But still, I can feel stress, surely.

The things are very, very complex.
No one knows if I stop working, then I can be happy or not.
There are various angles and perspectives, including financial, rewarding, life, self-development, and time usage, among others.

So there’s no magic decision that can solve everything in my life.
I can understand it as I’m maturing.
But that understanding itself doesn’t solve anything naturally.

So this is fate for humans and for me at least.

Monday is the biggest challenge of every week.
I’m always forced to consider and imagine if I can get through Monday.
My work makes me feel like that.

Every time I can get through and survive, even with tough tasks and jobs.
So I don’t need to worry about myself and my work.
But in reality, I feel some stress.

Fortunately, I was able to maintain good mental and physical health.
I hope that will remain the same.

But I wish I could graduate from the labor I’m working on.
If I can earn the same amount of money with an easy and less stressful job, that’s also welcome.