Today is my company’s holiday, so I don’t want to work.
But on the other hand, I couldn’t come up with a good plan to spend the day off.

It’s serious.
Even if I have time and money, if I’m not able to find a way to use them, it means my life is kind of meaningless.

But a more important premise here is that there’s no meaning for anyone’s life unless it’s defined by themselves.
So, trying to discover is the wrong way to create the meaning, because there’s nothing by itself.

Back to my day off story.
I thought I could go to Kamakura to stroll around the area, but in the end, I lost motivation after considering the details.
So I’m here at Saizeriya near my house to read a book.

Today’s flow itself is a bit chaotic, and the book I’m going to read is a non-fiction book about the criminal of Zama Nine Murders.
Embracing the chaos.

I’ll need to be a interviewer for the open position for my team, but it’s in English.
I had that experience several times in the past, but still it’s not comfortable as it’s 1on1 and I’m not native speaker.
I need to review the resume and come up with enough question.
I need to show my smile in nice way and be friendly for the external candidate.

The bar for English communication was significantly lowered in these days as I need to use it for my job.
But still I can feel small challenges for the communication in English as I can compare the experience with Japanese’s one.

Actually it can be stressful, so I’m even wondering if my current job is helpful for having happier life.
When I was young, I believe developing myself hard in challenging environment is the way.
But I’m getting older.
I’m not sure but this can happen due to multiple possibilities (some of them can be wrong); changing the concept of value, getting smarter about the life, loosing motivation, time is becoming more valuable than other factors in my life, etc.

The exam season for my elder daughter finished.
We can say it’s succeeded, as she passed the entrance exam for her first-choice private junior high school.
Some of her friends failed to pass their first-choice.

I’m doing well now without having the experience of studying in college.
But I assume it’s too challenging and needs tremendous luck.
So I want her to study well in her school time and go to a good college.

It’s not easy to define and achieve one’s own “happy life”, but I don’t want her to find critical difficulties in her life.
Money and a good environment are essential to avoid unwanted hardship at least.

The school is not first-class, I would say, but I’m proud of her as it’s definitely the fruit of her good effort.