I’ll turn 42 this year.
The feeling that there must be something more wonderful somewhere else other than here is being faded and lost.

I didn’t expect what would be my 40s when I was young, but I’m living my 40s now.
I need to keep my eyes open and keep thinking about myself.
At least, I can try to remember my 40s by doing that.

A couple of days ago, I tried to imagine my moment of dying as specifically as I could.
Then I felt a quite strong fear for my life’s end.

This is important for me, but nothing for most of the other existence in the world.
This fact will remain the same for sure even if I try to do whatever I can.
I’ll die and it’s just the death of one person.

The human is powerful enough to ignore and forget this fact.

Have completed 22 books this year.
This pace is the top record for these 10 years.

Reading the book is easy and the tip to continue reading is to stop reading the boring books.
More difficult is finding and meeting with a good book.
I’m relying on some awards to evaluate the books since I’m not a billionaire.

For me, the book, especially hardcover is expensive.
I can’t spend so much money on the book.

Anyway, currently reading books is a top hobby for me to “consume” my time.
We all need to consume time and survive.
There is not much difference in how to consume time.
In the end, time will be just consumed.

Even at my age, still I can learn.
I would say,  still I can notice basic stuff.

Someone’s common practice, way of thinking, attitude, and habit can be uncommon for others.

Putting the garbage into the trash can is very common for me.
Hence I force family members to do so based on my common sense.
However, the older daughter is not able to follow the guidance and suggestions.

This is a gap in the norm for each.
No one is guaranteed as correct in the subjective world.
Everyone is correct in their world with their standard.

If other world’s standard is pushed forcefully, it can be a reason for depression.

This is what I could learn from my elder daughter.

The older daughter is now 11 and will enter the 6th grade of elementary school.

She is also going to a private tutor(cram school).
The objective is to try to go to a private junior high school.

But she doesn’t do self-study proactively.
Even with our suggestion, she is not willing to study.

Going to a private junior high school is not mandatory.
It’s her choice and if we force her to study hard, it will spoil her life.

Even with that consideration, she has some problems due to her sensitive age.
If I suggest she quit private tutoring school, she refuses.
But she doesn’t spend enough time for study.

Our ultimate objective is to let her live happily.
That’s for sure.

The stock price of my company is rising well.
It’s from 45$ to 60+$ in this 4 month.
I have 4.5k stocks, and it’s not a small amount.

I hope I can get more money.
When I was young, I didn’t care about money

But with growing, money started to play a more important role, especially for my family.
I spend the least within my family but still, much money is used for glossaries, clothes, and education.

Time also becomes an important factor after having a family as I need to spend time taking care of my kids.
But if I’m a billionaire, it can be a game changer and solver for the challenges.

If I’m rich, I can go to university now.
I’m interested in studying but achieving both work and studying is not easy for an ordinary man.

I started getting into reading at the beginning of this year.
It was gradual.

Anyway I read the book when I ride exercise bike every week.
But in addition to that, I read the book in night time more frequently.
I have read 9 books in this month.

It was unfortunate I stopped reading habit after marriage, and I didn’t have this habit while my elder daughter was little and young.
Because showing the role model is best way to motivate children, as per my understanding.

I recently read the book written by former CEO of Hitachi.
The author started 2 hours of random reading in the morning from his mid-40s.

I agree and it should be good idea if the person will need to be CEO.
Achieving knowledge and cultivate oneself is important for such kind of person.
If I need to be CEO, I’ll do the same.

The year is now 2025.
I’ll be 42, my older daughter will be in 6th grade, and my younger daughter will be in the same school with her big sister.
It will be the fiscal year for junior high school exams.

I really hope this year will be good year for everyone especially around me.
I don’t have critical issue in my life, but it’s just for now.
No one knows about the future.

My dad friend will start working in my company.
He is good guy and I believe it’s good choice.

I had 13 days off from 24th Dec, but it’s 5th Jan already.
Time really flies fast.
But I always realize again that day off is super important to have OFF from the duty.
And it’s crucial especially for older and growing man.

I have something to worry about.

My elder daughter seems not to like studying, and making a effort.
She likes playing a game, and watching Netflix, but she doesn’t care her exam scores.

I can’t blame her as the very first time when I started to study by my own intention is around 25 year’s old.
But I now learned that studying is important and helpful to have good life.

I really want to help her.
But it cannot be achieved without her understanding and help.

Last week, I created presentation with 8 slides to explain her situation, and the decisions she needs to make.
Hope she understands it, but if she doesn’t want to spend time for learning, still it’s OK.

But she will need to quit her private tutoring.

Days off are very important.
Since my job and role is with high pressure, “off” to away from the responsibility is crucial to maintain myself.
Even though I’m not good at switching on and off.
Still I can be away from the job.

My sister-in-law will visit my house tomorrow with her daughter.
It is always a pleasure to meet with her, as I like her personality.
Hope she can enjoy the stay, and my daughters and her daughter can enjoy the meet up and playing together.

My younger daughter caught stomach sick, then elder daughter had 39 degree C fever.
I needed to take her to the doctor, but fortunately it’s not a flu, and recovered promptly.
They are so excited to visit my wife’s home town from 30th, and looking forward.
Catching the sickness earlier is kind of positive.

It’s already December 24th.
Failed to keep posting in earlier days in Dec…

No special update, but finally I finished my work in 2024.
I have almost 2 weeks off, but Time will fly.