I’m promoted to Technical Leader in my company.
I have kind of mixed feelings.

It should be good thing for me.
It means I’m recognized in the eco-system around me in the company and my organization.
It means more higher salary basically, and my total income would exceed 20M yen depending on the RSU.
It means my new role and grade can have some effect for having influence on other stake holders.

And, my position is very rare and valuable in Japan organization, no one can easily achieve the position.
It’s a kind of special privilege and also I’m in the role for providing support and guidance for all the Japanese stake holders.
I would not have positive feeling for going back to Japan org if there’s good opportunity. Organization itself and people in the org is not so attractive, and looks not capable for me.

But how much can it mean for my life. It’s doesn’t mean a lot.
Anyway I’ll try to continue to expand my influence and presence.

Reading Nejimakidori Chronicle again. It’s been a long time since I read this.
The reason is Amazon started to sell kindle version of the novel.

The novel in my memory is a bit boring, because there’s no drastic story lines.
But actually it’s interesting to read and enough exciting to continue to read.

When I was high school student, I read lots of books, as I didn’t participate the classes actively.
I didn’t skip the lessons, but I just read the novels during the classes.

Reading is not easy for me. I should have noticed before.
But I started to be aware that clearly.
Sometimes I feel kind of slump feeling for reading.

Looks training and practice by reading a lot of books is not so helpful for addressing that.

For some reason, I have no strong motivation to spend time from 9-10 pm after putting my daughter to sleep.
I should be able to enjoy something like a novel, comic, game, TV drama, movie, etc.
But there’s nothing special after I finish Starfield.

There’s not much difference between I’m browsing the internet without purpose and, comparing with enjoying those things.
But the interesting fact is that it looks I want to focus on something enjoyable or something worth focusing on to spend my time.

I assume usual day and regular life nowadays is totally different from the day in 30 years ago.

Internet changed everything of our life.
Now it’s super convenient, but we can do comparison at anywhere anytime.

Comparison can be quite strong poison which ruins our happiness.
Based on my experience, the effect toward unhappiness is bigger than the effect to more happy feelings.

If we compare our life with others, there’s always people who have more which might be a things you are seeking and chasing.
Always there’s winner and loser, and comparing by using internet highlight it in very effective way.

Just having our own life becomes difficult due to the technology, due to flood of information.

Stopped playing Startfield and I read the comic, Mystery to Iu Nakare.
Storyline itself is very interesting and mystery is attractive, but most of all, the atmosphere is very unique.

I can be into something including TV drama, game, comic, novels.
But after finishing the particular piece, I feel something vacant and blank transiently, and can loose what I want to do in this free time at night.
Though my time is really limited, and should be very valuable, but I can’t leverage well sometimes.

Tomorrow is sports festival of kindergarten, and need to go to Nitori to check bunk bed for my daughters.
I should have good salary, but my condo located near metropolitan area is not so spacious.
Hence the selection.

Sunday, we go to Osteopathic clinic for body work and my elder daughter has test of private school.
If we have time, I plan to go to sport gym.

Today I went to sport gym before picking up my daughter after private school.
Full with schedule, and no free time for personal stuff.

PC refresh on my work started from end of Aug, but I couldn’t complete my order due to system error.
Support from IT is awful and super frustrating.

Finally I expedite the process but they shipped the new laptop for wrong room#.
It’s hard to believe this kind of bad customer experience.

IT support staff even asked me to extend the date for PC refresh, though there’s no guarantee that my issue will get solved by just taking time.

Anyway finally I could get new PC for my work and it’s working well.
Comparing with 2019 Intel MBP 16 inch, it operates smoothly.

Have seen leak of chapter 236 of Jujutsu Kaisen.
It’s so shocking to me.

I’m glad the reason for the emotion is not completely clear to me.
It means there’s confusion and this is true emotion of human being.

Logic doesn’t have effect for strong emotion.

I played Startfield.
Though there’s some disappointment, I can enjoy playing the game.
Atmosphere of the town and each location is good and quest is full with interaction with NPC and it contribute to immersive experience.
There’s a lot of things I can do in the world.

But it’s not true open world game as there’s travel between planets and it’s just a load of first travel.
So without first travel, I can’t travel across the world, and this is disappointed.

It’s not for Startfield but another disappointing point is long term development of Bethesda.
I need to wait several more years for each new TES and fallout.
But I want to believe I can play those game one day with enjoyment of playing open world game.

Language barrier and time-zone barrier is tough to overcome.
Getting less chance to get to know each other with people in US naturally.
And even with opportunity, language is great but difficult tool for communication with feelings and emotions.

Race is another factor existing in the communication.
From both race-wise and language-wise, I’m minority in the organization.
Gradually getting use to the environment and culture where we need to declare clearly, but challenges are in reality.