I have wanted to buy a Macbook for a couple of years.
It stimulates my desire to possess it, but I haven’t bought it so far.

The problem is I don’t have any specific usage with the Macbook.
I have my Windows desktop PC, and laptop as well.

I have 1 MacBook Pro but that’s for work, and company-owned.
I don’t want to use that laptop on my time off.

I don’t have any specific purpose for which I need to buy the Macbook personally.
But again, I still want it. This is quite strange but possibly related to the mechanism of human beings, especially for possession.

Not sure if things will change later, and I reaches a turning point later.

Pollen season is coming to Japan.

Again, I’m experiencing weird unwellness similar to a cold.
I’m trying medicine for pollen allergies but not working completely.

This time, my younger daughter is having the allergy as well.
The problem is sleeping. With congested nasal, it isn’t easy to have sound sleep.
So we take her to the doctor and the medicine from the doctor looks working well for her.


Recently, a senior colleague in my previous decision is becoming “difficult” with aging.
I just feel it and there’s no concrete evidence.

He divorced in the past and still single, and has no children.
The concept of value is changing with the environment, so there can be a gap between people who have different backgrounds.

I don’t think he is going in the right direction at least for the career.
But career is just a small part of the life.
And everyone is right at their choice for their life.

I’ll turn 42 this year.
The feeling that there must be something more wonderful somewhere else other than here is being faded and lost.

I didn’t expect what would be my 40s when I was young, but I’m living my 40s now.
I need to keep my eyes open and keep thinking about myself.
At least, I can try to remember my 40s by doing that.

A couple of days ago, I tried to imagine my moment of dying as specifically as I could.
Then I felt a quite strong fear for my life’s end.

This is important for me, but nothing for most of the other existence in the world.
This fact will remain the same for sure even if I try to do whatever I can.
I’ll die and it’s just the death of one person.

The human is powerful enough to ignore and forget this fact.

Have completed 22 books this year.
This pace is the top record for these 10 years.

Reading the book is easy and the tip to continue reading is to stop reading the boring books.
More difficult is finding and meeting with a good book.
I’m relying on some awards to evaluate the books since I’m not a billionaire.

For me, the book, especially hardcover is expensive.
I can’t spend so much money on the book.

Anyway, currently reading books is a top hobby for me to “consume” my time.
We all need to consume time and survive.
There is not much difference in how to consume time.
In the end, time will be just consumed.

Even at my age, still I can learn.
I would say,  still I can notice basic stuff.

Someone’s common practice, way of thinking, attitude, and habit can be uncommon for others.

Putting the garbage into the trash can is very common for me.
Hence I force family members to do so based on my common sense.
However, the older daughter is not able to follow the guidance and suggestions.

This is a gap in the norm for each.
No one is guaranteed as correct in the subjective world.
Everyone is correct in their world with their standard.

If other world’s standard is pushed forcefully, it can be a reason for depression.

This is what I could learn from my elder daughter.

The older daughter is now 11 and will enter the 6th grade of elementary school.

She is also going to a private tutor(cram school).
The objective is to try to go to a private junior high school.

But she doesn’t do self-study proactively.
Even with our suggestion, she is not willing to study.

Going to a private junior high school is not mandatory.
It’s her choice and if we force her to study hard, it will spoil her life.

Even with that consideration, she has some problems due to her sensitive age.
If I suggest she quit private tutoring school, she refuses.
But she doesn’t spend enough time for study.

Our ultimate objective is to let her live happily.
That’s for sure.

The stock price of my company is rising well.
It’s from 45$ to 60+$ in this 4 month.
I have 4.5k stocks, and it’s not a small amount.

I hope I can get more money.
When I was young, I didn’t care about money

But with growing, money started to play a more important role, especially for my family.
I spend the least within my family but still, much money is used for glossaries, clothes, and education.

Time also becomes an important factor after having a family as I need to spend time taking care of my kids.
But if I’m a billionaire, it can be a game changer and solver for the challenges.

If I’m rich, I can go to university now.
I’m interested in studying but achieving both work and studying is not easy for an ordinary man.

I started getting into reading at the beginning of this year.
It was gradual.

Anyway I read the book when I ride exercise bike every week.
But in addition to that, I read the book in night time more frequently.
I have read 9 books in this month.

It was unfortunate I stopped reading habit after marriage, and I didn’t have this habit while my elder daughter was little and young.
Because showing the role model is best way to motivate children, as per my understanding.

I recently read the book written by former CEO of Hitachi.
The author started 2 hours of random reading in the morning from his mid-40s.

I agree and it should be good idea if the person will need to be CEO.
Achieving knowledge and cultivate oneself is important for such kind of person.
If I need to be CEO, I’ll do the same.

The year is now 2025.
I’ll be 42, my older daughter will be in 6th grade, and my younger daughter will be in the same school with her big sister.
It will be the fiscal year for junior high school exams.

I really hope this year will be good year for everyone especially around me.
I don’t have critical issue in my life, but it’s just for now.
No one knows about the future.

My dad friend will start working in my company.
He is good guy and I believe it’s good choice.

I had 13 days off from 24th Dec, but it’s 5th Jan already.
Time really flies fast.
But I always realize again that day off is super important to have OFF from the duty.
And it’s crucial especially for older and growing man.

I have something to worry about.

My elder daughter seems not to like studying, and making a effort.
She likes playing a game, and watching Netflix, but she doesn’t care her exam scores.

I can’t blame her as the very first time when I started to study by my own intention is around 25 year’s old.
But I now learned that studying is important and helpful to have good life.

I really want to help her.
But it cannot be achieved without her understanding and help.

Last week, I created presentation with 8 slides to explain her situation, and the decisions she needs to make.
Hope she understands it, but if she doesn’t want to spend time for learning, still it’s OK.

But she will need to quit her private tutoring.