I could focus on the submission for my proposal to external conference. It’s good.

Not much news from my usual days.
Sometimes I feel like I’m just spending all my time for working and taking care of my daughters.
It’s not true and now I can write down this blog, but sense and feeling is not so logical.

Future will be less exciting?
Sounds it’s not correct.
But at least time is getting valuable day by day.

Manager suggested me to have a session in upcoming external customer event in Melbourne.
Being a speaker is my dream so no issue from that angle.

But it will have strict screening and review, so there’s no guarantee that I can be a speaker.
In addition to that, manager disclosed the information to my team as I’ll pursue the opportunity, as a result.
With Japanese thought process, this is not good, since it might be a kind of humiliation or embarrassing if I failed to be a presenter.

But anyways, there’s no other way from being positive and constructive.

Had 2 events this weekend.

Held home party with ex-teacher of kindergarten and with family friend in same condo.
Children also enjoyed gathering and played around in my house.

Visited Country Farm Tokyo German Village by using coupon from benefit station.
It was very hot weather, but still manage to play outside.
It was not a good season for watching flowers, but the visit was good lesson learn that the park is good place to visit with family.

I found basket goal and played some, and now having muscle ache.

For some reason, bluetooth adapter integrated onto the motherboard started to work again.
Because of this, I had some trouble with other USB bluetooth adapter, but now it should be all good.

Commuted to the office after certain or maybe long interval.
This kind of event or chore is only reason to visit workspace, since now I can’t meet with my foreign colleagues in person.

Instead of that, I could meet with my original hiring manager.
I recall job interview and other related experience with her about 10-11 years ago with some mixed feelings.
But now I can be proud of myself in front of her, and I think that’s good.

I wouldn’t expect severe result from health checkup today, but I need to keep being careful about my health.
Need to keep going sport gym to do some exercise at least.

Turning 40 and concept of value is getting changed.
When I was young, I thought like time is not limited, but recently noticing it was not true.
It shouldn’t be true from the beginning so I was wrong from the very first, but our sense/feeling doesn’t work like robot/computer.
So there’s always misperception and false feelings.

Literally the end of my life is coming though it’s not very near.
So time is getting valuable more and more.

We can’t go back into the past.
But we can’t be aware of what it’s like in future until we actually get older.

By thinking about these kind of things, I feel like I can understand more about human imperfection.

Have watched black mirror episode 2 / season 6 on Netflix.
The series is not my big favorite but not boring to me and watched all the episodes so far.

To watch the video “silently”, I tried to use my earphone but looks it can work well with bluetooth USB adapter on windows10.
I tried to solve, but couldn’t find any solution.
Trying drivers, using different USB ports, trying to find change bluetooth codec on windows10(but actually this is not possible).

Anyway I gave up and started to use wireless head-phone, so no issues from the beginning if I just chose this option.
But each option can be chosen with or without the reason, and this kind of thing can happen anytime at anywhere.

Today is parent’s day of kindergarten and visited the open class to see my younger daughter’s paper work.

Then we went to movie theater to watch The Super Mario Brothers Movie together.
Daughters really looked forward this event and looks totally satisfied with the movie and also the pop-corn and coke.

I myself also enjoyed watching the movie.
The sense of humor is good for me. I couldn’t help but laughed couple of times.

In addition to those, today was father’s day actually, but as usual I prepared breakfast for my daughters and fed them it.
A bit hectic day but I understand we need this kind of day with family.

I though the word press environment is broken due to security incident on the host and other some reasons but looks it’s not true. DB itself keeps being intact and now WP is working fine.
There’s not many posts I put. So it’s not a big news from that angle, but one good thing is I can post newly.

This is the test post.

It’s been a long time since I posted last article.
Still I don’t have much time to continue this blog, though I understand posting English article can be good exercise for constructing sentences which is not job related.

It’s almost an year after moving to new team where I’m only Japanese.
Still I’m struggling to make myself useful to contribute to my team.
And still it’s difficult for me to have casual chatting with my English native colleague.

I will turn to 39 in June.
I’m not young anymore.
I assume I will need to confront myself and my situation more to adapt to the change.

I had 4 interviews late Dec, but still I’m waiting the result from the manager.
He said he will start to collect feed backs and get back to me in a few days last Sunday, but already an week passed.

As usual, I keep learning English in online English school.
Sometimes I suddenly felt like I can’t develop myself and improve English.
It’s a really long journey, but only way to moving forward is continuing.

I need to expand my active vocabulary.
I’m not familiar with leaning method, but to extend the active vocabulary, I may need to learn more passive vocab.
I searched some website which provide English audio/video with transcript.
Will try some during the work.

The time is really limited.
I can’t play game if I learn English.
But I wan to buy new Desktop PC with powerful GPU.
I’ve been using current PC over 5 years, and everyday I think it’s a time to purchase new PC.

Seems I can’t make a long/consistent story.

I got used to create simple sentences because of my work.
I need to train and try to use grammar and vocab that I can’t use freely now.
But till this part, I only used English dictionary one time.
Seems not effective as training.

To address the issue, I may need to use kind of topic talk method.
Choosing one topic and state about the topic in English.
But it’s bothering.